Stronger than i thought
i don't know how to say this but i need to let it out of my chest. i'm very thankful with my life now. i had it all covered from top to toe. i think i manage myself well after all that is happening in my life. a friend of mine knows what happened to me by accident. she kept wandering how did i manage to stay strong and keep a straight face. she told me i was strong. but in reality i'm not. i did crumble a lot of the times in secret. the thing about depression is it has no face. you wouldn't know if someone has it unless you experienced it yourself. it creeps in at night. making you stay awake. it haunts you. giving you awful ideas. i'm in a loss of words now. i feel overwhelm with the word STRONG i'm not strong. i try so hard to be what i am now. i try so hard to face the world. i try so hard to ignore all the negative thoughts. because i love my kids so much that i need to fight for them. to cherish my life for them. my life go